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| Gosh I wish there were more weekends like this one. Felt like there
were two Saturdays. I *loved* it. I bought so many new clothes...that I
neither need nor have room for. Thats thoroughly exciting. Aria is
being blessed tomorrow at church...her dress is so gorgeous. As is she.
It will be fun. Blahblahblah...not much to say. Actually I'm sure I
could come up with a lot I just don't feel like going into detail about
anything. It took me like 20 minutes to remember how to add a new entry
to this stupid thing. Come to find out people actually ready my stupid
live journal. Course once my friends find this they will read it as
well.
You know I'm not quite sure what it is about me and trying to...prove
something I guess. Prove that I'm over it. That I'm okay with out him.
That I don't have feelings like that for him anymore. That I've moved
on. That I don't really need anyone. That things he does don't effect
me anymore...whether they actually do or not. Or if I just make myself
believe I don't care. Which I guess is the only way to really not
care...to make yourself believe you don't. Because its human nature to
care. So how does he not care so naturally? I don't know. It would make
my life 10 times easier if we could just talk once, about everything,
and straighten things out so I know what happened. Then stupid times
like these wouldn't have me running up the wall. And I wouldn't have to
worry about what I said and who I said it to...because there would be
nothing to say about it.
....and no one has any idea what I'm talking about so I'm shutting up.
I went to see the Ring 2 yesturday with one of my best guy friends.
Being a scary movie of course I was practically in his lap. I kept like
wacking him too lol just cause I'd jump and go to grab him at the same
time. So he eventually just put his arm around me. Guy nature I
guess...I don't know. Or maybe he thought that way I wouldn't wack him
anymore haha. Either way...I really liked it. I still can't figure out
if it was the fact that he was the one that had his arm around me, or
just that a boy had his arm around me. I miss the whole dating a boy
thing...in theory. Like I miss having someone to hold hands with and
someone to cuddle with and someone to kiss...where it all actually
means something. Cause I can cuddle with any of my guy friends or hold
their hands just messing around...but it doesn't give you the same kind
of butterfly in your stomach feeling as it does when you really like
the guy. I guess I just miss liking someone. Like *really* liking them.
I haven't had a big crush in a long time...probably because last time,
just like any other time, I got burned. But last time it hurt the
most...and I still have the scars. I honestly don't see me steadily
dating anyone anytime soon, simply because theres no one to date in
that way, and I don't see any way of me meeting anyone new anytime
soon. So unfortunatley its yet another reason to look forward to
college.
Anyways...enough of this nonesence. I have other things to do before
bed. Basically just because I don't feel like going to bed right now
haha. The joys of the weekend.
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| Alisha's moods are not controlled
by boys thank you very much. I am highly offended that people thought I
was so upset over a boy. Yuck. Well not yuck...but that's just stupid.
I hate it when people go totally nuts over a guy. And when they're
upset--its always about a guy. And when they're happy--its because of a
guy. Cooommmooonnn geez louise. Things other than boys upset me. And
just for the record--I don't often get upset about a boy. Yes, I get
highly irratated and annoyed. But very rarely do I actually get upset.
I could probably count the number of times when I was genuinly (dang I
wish I could spell) in a bad mood, specifically because of a guy. They
were all very good reasons mind you. Anyways, all in all, the moral of
this rant would be that I have bigger and more important things in my
life that control my emotions other than my relationships with guys.
The End.
Actually thats not the end lol...but for now it'll be a rain
check....cause uh...I have more important things to be doing....I just
like to type really...lol
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| look at me im soooooooo cool i have an xanga. i think i actually like
this better than lj...just because its harder for people to find
because not as many people have xangas anymore....haha
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